Theos-Talk Archives (May 1995 Message tl00017)

Ann, replying to Jerry, wrote

> Jerry:
> > In short, we influenced their karma, to the good to be sure.  I
> > think that this kind of thing goes on all the time - we mingle
> > our karmic burdens with others, often unconsciously at the time,
> > and hopefully for the better.
>
>
> This struck deep to the heart of something I've been thinking
> about lately.  My mother has been mentally disturbed all her life
> and I've realized that I've been taking care of her most of my
> life, forty some years.  Many of the skills most kids learn from
> their parents I had to go out and learn for myself.  I figure
> there must be some terrible karma between us and I've agreed to
> assist her through this life in ways which other normal people
> would have done for themselves.  .......
>
> My fondest wish is that in some future life she might come back
> as my daughter and I might help her over some inner problems.
> Seems like I've only been able to help her with her outer ones
> this time around.

The last part of this makes me feel that there's not just a
terrible karma between you, but an enduring love contract at a
deep inner level, being put into practice in this particular
form.

Perhaps you are both in the midst of transforming a terrible
karma but, on the other hand, there might not have been a
terrible karma at all.  Whatever the case, though, it looks as if
you have both taken an opportunity to grow through this
particular relationship.

And surely a healing essence from your "outer" help is soaking
into your mother's being, to help her grow in her own best ways
in the future when love express itself in "outer" ways again.

Murray