Theos-Talk Archives (April 1995 Message tl00056)

I feel kind of vulnerable sharing this, fear of the flake factor,
but a few months ago I had an experience that may fit into the
Grokking posts.  I was compulsively trying to get my computer to
work and make the transition between IBM Tandy to Mac.  It was
very late in the evening 2:00 am.  I all of a sudden started
feeling claustophobic and even frightened.  The Mac wasn't
frightening and I hadn't been reading or watching Stephen King or
Lovecraft.  I felt I was in a small damp room and that I was
frightened.  In my minds eye I saw things elongated and
everything seemed low to the ground.  Then the image of a cat in
a confined room came up and I imagined myself going and letting
the cat out.  The only problem was I couldn't differentiate
between the cat's consciousness and my own.  Who was liberating
who, was I the liberator or the liberatee? It was weird and I
thought I had better not work so hard anymore.  I went to the
basement washroom and while going down the stairs the inner scene
worked its way into my reality.  The cat actually was stuck in a
storage room I let it out with the feeling of de je vous.  I hope
this sharing doesn't seriously effect my status on Theos-l.  But
I thought it relevant.

Art