Theos-Talk Archives (November 1999 Message tl00293)

Hi Estrella,

I do not know if there is anything I can do, but I feel
very sad in reading your letter. I don't know if it will
help and if you want to, but *you might want to talk about
it*: or in this case, write about it (some more). We will
provide a listening ear, at least, I will.

> Hi all, it is been a while since i writed here.
> The reason for my delay in writing, besides of changing my email adress,
> it is because of serious difficulties in my schoolwork. the pressure it
> is been extreme, and i have the feeling that i cannot do it.
>     Well, i am quite young still, but as some of you have experienced
> once in a while in their lifetime, there are a certain time in your life
> when you experience what the rolling stones have called "19 nervous
> breakdown"
>     I am passing now one of those moments. i will not waste time
> explaining the serious difficulties what i am having in my schoolwork
> project, but i will resume them in one: Want to get the heck out of
> here. I claim mercy. I realize that i am doing something that i should
> have never started, and the major difficulty: I cannot finish it.

You cannot finish it, but can you stop it? I have been in
two previous colleges before this one, not finished them,
before finally I found the one that did fit me, who I am,
what I can do, and how I can do it. Perhaps it is like that
for you? If you do things bad enough, someone will kick you
out, no problem. Then the problem becomes: what now? Big
question, but better that question than staying somewhere
where you do not belong.
But perhaps i am jumping to conclusions here...?

>     I am feeling right now like in a bad version of a Kafka book, and
> the depression it is something more ahead that i can manage. i need
> help. I do not like to cause compassion or that other pepole do the work
> i am supposed to do, but, if i am asking for help, it is because this is
> more than i can handle for the moment.

I know the feeling (is that help?)

Katinka
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NHL Leeuwarden
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