Theos-Talk Archives (April 1996 Message tl00247)

continuing with that thought--

Despite the fact that at some level I knew as early as 1978
that astrology and Cayce would never let me down, and Theosophy
could break my heart, I still "picked door number three."
Nobody made me devote the lion's share of my time, energy and
money to pursuing Theosophy for years and years.  This reminds
me of the way some people gravitate to the romantic partners
who are guaranteed to hurt them, ignoring the sweet, sane,
reliable alternatives and heading straight for disaster.

These reflections are somewhat influenced by reading The White
Buddhist, and feeling the truth of its last chapter, "Things
Fall Apart."  People from Olcott and HPB down to Krishnamurti
and Emmett Small have been placing their hopes in Theosophical
organizations and finally concluding that their faith and hope
were misplaced.  Whatever organization it may be, putting any
hope in it seems to be building your house on sand.

Some people are lucky that way.  They have harmonious
relations with the powers that be; they get their books
published by Theosophical publishers; they get only positive
results from the time and energy and money they invest in the
Theosophical movement.  But if I had to advise someone just
starting out, the message would have to be: beware.  There is
some strange force field here that will suck you into a vortex
of group karma so intense and weird that you may take the rest
of your life figuring out what happened.